alouettesque

 So it's March and I'm officially reading books again! Finally! 

 I posted these on Tumblr a few days ago but here they are now, and also I'm going to elaborate on them a little bit for long-form blogging.

personal

• dye my hair black (because hopefully that will help me stop being weird about my blonde hair not being as blonde as it used to be and I can stop being self-conscious whenever my grandmother mentions it)
• go through my entire wardrobe and keep only that which is tailored to (ha!) my current situation
• do more hobbies and less social media

get it together

• find a dentist
• join a credit union
• find a therapist
• plan meals in advance 
• figure out what the Next Step is (because my job is making me miserable and I know part of that is because I have been off meds for over a month now but also my job just generally is so exhausting and it's not what I want to do long-term)

creative 

• finish a long-term WIP
• make visual art for myself and don’t worry about it being good (I wrote today in my sketchbook: "I am going to draw badly and be okay with it! I am going to paint some real garbage and love it! And maybe I will make stuff I like, too!")
• take an art class with my mom
• finish a sketchbook

that's uh. that's the list. I also want to keep reading (I read 18 books in 2018 compared to the 4 books I read in 2017, so I want to keep that momentum going) and utilizing the library. I want to keep going outside even though I'm not in the PNW anymore. I was really impressed by how concrete Galvin's resolutions were and I think that I try breaking things down into quantifiable resolutions at some point this month, but for now... these are good.

do you want to meet my terrible children, aka my works in progress? some of these are uhhhhh really fucking old but I'm still working on them so like. that's who i am as a person.

TWINE GAME: i've been making a game in twine since i had mono in 2015 and decided to learn how to code in twine by writing about my most familiar universe. didn't think it would end up being such an endeavor. currently clocks in at around 35k words. two different points of view, which follow different stories happening on the same evening and have drastically different tones. a friend described one of the playthroughs as "a relationship novel" and the other as "magic political intrigue" and like, that checks out. 

NANOWRIMO 2k18: same universe as the twine game, which is that of a heavily and repeatedly retconned story a friend and I made up together in 2005. I hit 50k at the end of November but I'm only like, a third of the way through the story. so I'm working right now on reading through what i wrote and making revision notes and just resting a little. 

SUMMER SEQUEL: back in.. 2015? i think? I wrote a self-indulgent modern au les mis fic as a way to process and express some angst about adhd to my loved ones. didn't post it anywhere but shared the google doc with some friends. then i decided to make a sequel to it because friends encouraged me and because the adhd angst is neverending. this is that sequel. it's currently about 15k words long and it's really almost done but I just need to finish the last section. proud to say that adhd au has the galvin seal of approval as Not Bad Modern AU Fic but i'll never post this shit publicly on ao3 or ff.net because........... of a variety of reasons. 

and then some other assorted WIPs that aren't like.... actively in progress but rather were partially written during nanowrimo of years past and are now currently On Hold and maybe one day I'll return to them.

anyway. uhhhh. i should go to sleep. bye.